YOU ARE AMAZING GOD

Indescribable Song

I have known many different loves in my life.  Friends, family, dating, marriage, kids, pets, etc...


But I have never known a love like I have for the Lord.  It has developed through the crisis, trials, test, and hard times.  He has proven himself faithful.  What is so amazing to me is that he has nothing to prove to me.  He already proved his mind blowing love at Calvary.  Yet.....He, my Savior and Lord, has proven himself to be trustworthy, loyal, faithful, loving, kind, forgiving, passionate....and so much more.  


In all of my failures, mistakes, you have loved me.   You loved me when I was drunk, drugged, raped, abused, angry, lost....you excepted as I was....and kept calling out my name.  You wouldn't let go.  You said vengeance is mine and taught me to let go and forgive.  Most gave up on me.  Some called me needy, a freak.  The ones closest to me said those things.  You picked me up...needy and crazy....and loved me to wholeness.  I owe you my Lord, my all.


My mind can't hardly grasp his never failing love.  When I sit in his presence, I am humbled by his gaze, overwhelmed by his power.  I can hardly stand...how amazing. My heart races...when you enter the room Lord...you are the one who forgave me, changed me.  Never did you once, give up on me.  I will serve you all my days.  I will follow you wherever you lead.  Whatever you require of me....be it unto me.


God's love is passionate, purposeful, and permanent.  He will never give up on you or let you go.  He loves even when we are unlovable, a mess.  All we have't to do is cry out and he comes.  When you ask Christ to forgive you and come into your life, he will.  Give him your life totally today.

Woman Created

Genesis 2:   ⁷And the LORD God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul.


²⁰And Adam gave names to all cattle, and to the fowl of the air, and to every beast of the field; but for Adam there was not found an help meet for him.

   ²¹And the LORD God caused a deep sleep to fall upon Adam, and he slept: and he took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh instead thereof;

   ²²And the rib, which the LORD God had taken from man, made he a woman, and brought her unto the man.

**God took Man and formed him formed him from the dust of the earth.  He could have just done the same thing with Eve.  He didn't have't to take from Adam's rib, but he chose to.  Why do you think that he did?

I would like to hear your comments and then I will tell you why I believe he did.

My Choice

Today has been challenging.  There are those days that you wanta pull your hair out or hide away. lol


I know some people may not understand why I do what I do.  When my parents starting becoming ill, I decided that I would take care of them.  Yes I could have put them in a convalescent home but I chose to allow them to stay in their own homes and try to live as normal a life as they can.


No I can't work and do this.  It is work taking care of both of them.  Keeping up there meds.  Giving them out and making sure I refill them.  Then there's their doctor visits, and tests, and blood work.  Then there is making meals for them, getting groceries and budgeting what little money there is to spread far enough to feed us, and pay bills.  Scilla helps me.  I don't think I could do it alone.  There are times I have't to walk away and she has to step up.


Momma does a bit around the house but isn't able to do alot.  She gets to feeling too bad.  Daddy is like a kid again.  He forgets so quickly and asks the same questions over and over.  He stresses out over everything so quickly.  Then Momma gets upset and then they both are mad.  I play referee. It is a full time job, believe me.  I chose to do it though.


We struggle.  There are times that at the end of the month we get low in food, gas money and etc...  There are times that we have't to do without.  It isn't easy but when I think of what the alternative is....I regroup and know that this is for a season and we will make the best of it.


So I guess it isn't easy for everyone to do.  I know everyone can't stop their lives and stay home, many do not have the patience.  I just know that if it were me, I would hope my kids would allow me to stay home and be close to them in my elderly years.  


God always comes through for us.  He has never forsaken us.  My God is so faithful.  So I have't to trust that he will make ways out of no ways for us.


When the car needs work...he will provide....when we need healing...he's our healer.....when we need strength...he's our strength...whatever we need ...we find in God's presence. 

Ever Present

I believe it was back in 2007 that I had a kidney stone attack.  It was so painful.  It was the third time I had, had it happen.  I was so sick, throwing up and in alot of pain.  I was at home.  The kids had school so I told them to go to bed. I didn't want them to miss school.  I laid there as long as I could and then I finally got up and drove myself to the Emergency Room.   They gave me morphine. It was the only thing that would even slightly touch the pain.  I was there all night. The next day, I start feeling some better and didn't even have a ride home.  I couldn't get ahold of anyone.  I laid there wanting to cry.  I was alone, in pain and felt the true feeling of alone.  I began to cry and the Holy Spirit calmed me.  He reminded me that I wasn't alone.  That he was there and that it was going to be alright.

I called a friend that I worked with and she said she would come get me.  She did and she took me home.  I wasn't feeling well still.  I am so grateful for my friend, Beth, who came and got me.  I just can't begin to express how alone I felt in the hospital with no one there.  

God will always show up wherever you are if you invite him.  Rather it be in a hospital room, your home, office, jail, a crisis...whatever it is....Just remember the Holy Spirit is there to comfort, encourage and help you.

Mercy and Grace

Often as we grow in God we forget we forget where we come from.  How far God has brought us.  I know for myself, he had a lot to forgive me of.  So much mess in my life.  But because he forgive me much....I have learned to praise much.

I honor those who have never drank, had premarital sex, drugs, lied, stole, adultery, etc...it is very honorable to never taste of those sins.  

But there is just something about someone God has to reach way down for.  Someone he has to clean really clean up.  They will spend all their days so grateful for how God rescued them.  It is amazing what God's mercy and grace can do.  

Psalms 18 - Clint Brown

This song is my Anthem.  So many storms and hard times...but I run to my heavenly Father and know he is my high tower, fortress, my everything.

Galatians 4

Galatians 4

   1 Now what I mean is that as long as the inheritor (heir) is a child and under age, he does not differ from a slave, although he is the master of all the estate;

   2 But he is under guardians and administrators or trustees until the date fixed by his father.

   3 So we [Jewish Christians] also, when we were minors, were kept like slaves under [the rules of the Hebrew ritual and subject to] the elementary teachings of a system of external observations and regulations.

   4 But when the proper time had fully come, God sent His Son, born of a woman, born subject to [the regulations of] the Law,

   5 To purchase the freedom of (to ransom, to redeem, to [a]atone for) those who were subject to the Law, that we might be adopted and have sonship conferred upon us [and be recognized as God’s sons].

   6 And because you [really] are [His] sons, God has sent the [[b]Holy] Spirit of His Son into our hearts, crying, Abba (Father)! Father!

   7 Therefore, you are no longer a slave (bond servant) but a son; and if a son, then [it follows that you are] an heir [c]by the aid of God, through Christ.

***We are no longer sinners bond by sin, but redeemed to be his Sons and Daughters.
We can walk in liberty and freedom because Christ paid the price of all our sins.
Now that we are adopted unto Christ, we have full access to our inheritance.  We can walk confidently because God is our Heavenly Father and he owns it all.  We can walk under submission to our Pastors and leaders and grow into all God has for us. All will be released as we grow in Christ.